Lost....I am no longer myself. I do not know where i am or where i am headed. Pushing others further and further away. This is not me but yet i feel completely fine doing what i do. I have become mercenary but i am perfectly alright with what i have become. Maybe i just need time on my own. But would that not only push me further into my own abyss? Or maybe i am just unhappy with my own life. Maybe i need a change. Maybe...... But i am feeling so tired now. So worn out by the everyday things that go on in my life. I see myself giving in but yet i am not giving in. I have no idea what is going on. 3 years have gone pass. There are still certain things that makes my heart ache. There are still things that i have promised my friends that i will do but have yet to fulfill. A friend once told me, "you have to find yourself to help yourself". But i guess even if i do, i will end up losing myself again. Things change as time goes by. But i guess questioning myself is the only thing that will never change. Good night my friends. I wish i will never wake.
-iWrote 1/21/2008 08:50:00 PM
